I just want to be enough for you. I try my hardest everyday to make you smile, to make you love life. I know that I can’t be her, I can’t be the girl you fell in love with first.. And I know that I have loved before too. That was how I learned to not take you for granted. I knew from the moment I saw you that I could throw my past away, take the lessons I learned from it and move on to something better; a life with you. Maybe I am nieve to think that you are doing the same for me. Maybe I am too blind to see that it’s not me you think about before you go to sleep at night. It would be easy for you to know how to fake love with me because you know how it feels. You can’t be with her so instead you share it with me.
Then again I have always been one to scare feelings away.. I can find the flaws in something so beautiful and perfect. It’s a curse. I’m not good enough for something so amazing. My body quivers and my stomach turns at the thought of you not loving me because frankley, I am in love with you.
Now here I am making a mess. My head creates stories and sometimes, I mix them with reality. I see love in your eyes when you look at me.. I never knew you could see love so clearly. From the day you asked me to be yours until now you never gave up on me.. You never stopped trying to amaze me. The time I have spend with you has been perfect. I feel like this is how everyone should live. When I think of how you are around me, and how you talk about me reassures me that what we have is real. I’m just scared, okay? I’m scared by every little pump in the road and exaggerate it in my mind so it feels like a mountain. I’m scared to lose you, okay? Life has never been this sweet to me and I don’t want to go back to my old life with out you. You saved me from where I was. You saved me from myself. I can not lose you because I care about you more than you could ever imagine. You are my bestfriend and the love of my life. I just want to be that for you too.